I am sitting here, as my children watch Paw Patrol, reflecting on my past year. Last year, before 2017 arrived, is when I discovered the wonder behind the One Word. I immediately gravitated toward it considering my ill luck and general dislike for the traditional New Year's resolutions. The process of word selection was rather easy and enjoyable. I decided on "Push."
I vowed to Push myself even if it meant to journey into an area outside of my comfort zone.
Throughout this year, I have done just that. I started this blog a year ago and although I am not writing near as often as I would like. It was a step in the right direction. I put myself out there for my story to be heard by others.
I dove even deeper into the learning opportunities that Twitter offers. At first in my Twitter journey, I was afraid to share. I didn't want to be one of "those" people. The ones that quick to brag but reluctant to grow. That's when I heard something from a Dave Burgess video that really stuck with me. He said to not think of it as bragging. You should be proud to tell your story and your experiences. Everyone has something to share and something to learn. This statement could not be more correct! The community of educators that exist on the Twitter platform blow me away on a daily basis.
One of my other highlight "pushes" of the year was the opportunity to guest moderate two different Twitter chats. Originally, this was something that I told myself might be good thing to do a couple years down the line. Yet, when the offers for guest moderators were given, I decided to stick to my word and "Push." This experience can be compared to a roller coaster. The nerves were intense as the chat date approached yet the chat itself seemed to be over in mere seconds. I left the hour wanting to go again!
I also stepped out of my comfort zone by becoming a consultant for a children's book company. This experience has taught me so much and opened me up in multiple ways. I have done live sales, online book parties and even book booths at local events.
All and all I am proud of myself and the "pushes" I have made to strengthen myself this past year.
Which brings me to 2018....
This year the word took much more time to find me. I contemplated words such as brave, grow, confidence, and resilient. While these were great words, they just didn't seem to fit. It was only after reflection of the "Year of 'Push'" that it finally hit me.
I had definitely changed in this past year. I had always been okay with existing in the shadows. I had mentioned in earlier posts that my defense strategy for the bullying I overcame in high school was to become invisible and attempt to blend into the background. Through the years, I have made small steps out of hiding, yet when things become uncomfortable, I back up again. It IS uncomfortable to step out of the shadows and into the light.
Yet... I have done that this year! I have been "pushed" from my safe spot in the corner and have found a new spot to call my own, which just happens to be in the center of the room. I can no longer hide, no longer blend... and I'm actually okay with that.
From this realization came my #OneWord2018:
Now that I am out in the open, out of my hiding I must shine! I must show the world who I am, as an educator, as a mom, and as a person.
Here are my goals for "shining" in 2018:
* I want to "shine" a light on my classroom not to show off what I do for my students, but to highlight what amazing things my students can do!
* I want to avoid any darkness that may try to overcome my light. I completely realize that although some of this comes from others, a majority of it comes from the doubts I have placed on myself.
* I want my light, my passion and enthusiasm, to spread. I want others to find their light and "shine" in their own way. There are many different ways to light the way for our students.
* I want to actively notice the parts of my life that "shine." I will do this by starting a gratitude journal for work and a moments jar for my home life.
Although I am not done "pushing" for there are still times where all I want to do is find a corner and run to it, I think this is clearly the next step in my process of growth.
It is time to SHINE!